HI BLOGYI I hope you are just fine really well I am not that good I guess it’s my normal way of living to be not that good at all so blogyi I guess you just getting used to me on this way well I need really to change I love to change my place at least but where the hell should I go don’t have any idea what so ever really blogyi I am not a bad person I am a good one please don’t judge me with my actions I know that I sometimes do some things without any thinking what so ever as if my mind is really out of order it’s really a strange thing that you really know that you are doing something not right and will really hurt me somehow but I decided to do it at the very end I guess its just a way to escape from my present by doing things which is not me at all when I really think about it I really thinks it wasn't really done by Mai it’s done by another one I don’t know what so ever this one was a total stranger to me as if I am turning to someone on the opposite of me to try to feel better to feel happy for a change and you know what is really funny that when I am back to myself I don’t really remmber how I really had been able to do that things I think it’s the same theory of superman he is the shy guy with the fear to do anything or to come near from anyone he is just a prisoner but really a prisoner inside himself locked deep inside but really locked with his own will as if he really loves to be a prisoner inside himself as it’s his own shelter which he really feels very comfortable by this way as if it’s really a protective shield he really turns into to protect himself from any harm but when the chance really came to turn him to the opposite one woooooooow superman brave rescue everyone a real hero as if he turns into some kind of legend but without his will this time he just turned to what he really wanted to be even for minutes and then back to his nature that's what really happens to me I sometimes turns to someone on the opposite of my character bold don’t think at all have no care to anyone with no fear from anything its strange what I could really turns into but the only different that I really regret the actions i had done when I am back to my nature but superman don’t he is very prude of himself but I really feels very shame of myself strange way strange feeling any way I guess I have something from superman I am super Mai
Thursday, 13 August 2009
SUPER MAI
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Hey Blogy, it's me your new friend.
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to send a message to your Buddy Mai;
from someone who lost the happiness after having a lot of it, from someone who lost true love after having a lot of it, from someone lost the dream, the hope and the power to fight and succeed to someone i think passed with similar experiences you had, take my advice.
I have turned to this superman, at the beginning i used to feel the same as you but after some time i used to it and turned to be the superman and forgot myself and when i remember i sit and say yaaaaaah i was this kind of person once upon a time, i wish i could turn back to the regular shy guy but... why i ask my self why and for whom?? some people say do it for yourself hah whom you say myself i never did anything for myself i gain my happiness from doing things to the one i love, but now there is no one so let it be superman who cares...
Hold on to yourself the flying thing is addict able and not easy to give it up until miracle happens.
Dont loose hope until death who knows God is there all the time never loose faith.
Amr