GREETING MESSAGE STABBED ME IN THE HEART

HI BLOGYI ,how are you happy Ramadan, well I guess ,I were really happy with Ramadan yesterday, but really something very strange ,just happened to me one hour after mid night from my ex husband, he is really greeting me for Ramadan, I were really shocked how dare him do that ,how dare him really ,after our last conversion which he really tarred me parts in it, after he left me in a very cruel way after his bad attitude toward me, how come he is so blind to really realize what he really did with me, how he really hurt me in a very bad and sever cruel way, as if he is treating an animal, when you really feels that this animal is really ugly dirty one and pathetic too, you just wanted to get rid of him very badly, so you he decided just to shoot him in the head to get rid of this animal without feeling any mercy for this animal not even for one sec ,he just took the gun and shot him between the eyes to make sure that he is dead and that this bullet will not miss its target for one percent, that it will get into this animal and just finishes him up nice and easy, and this animal will got lost forever with no trace, at all and he just didn’t bother himself to bury him, he really shot him and left him in the middle of the street without even caring to put him a side, the hell with it really get lost where ever you are, I just don't care, it’s just a dog and passed away the gone and will rot in hell body, it's just your faith, how come I do that with someone and leave him dead tiered apart and then suddenly, I decide to remember him and greet him for Ramadan, how come a person became so senseless tell this point, how come he is just blind can't even saw what he really done to this person, how come I can really face him again, it’s really very cruel what he really trying to do to me ,as if he really didn’t felt satisfied with the bullet between the eyes ,so it’s really not enough ,so I will get a knife and decided to stab him in the heart not to kill him cause he was dead long time ago ,no to really feel that I am really strong, I am very cruel, I could really damage others, and made them really suffer in any time ,I just want them to suffer, that’s the whole point that he really feels so strong when he really feels that feeling of victory, that's all ,but the really strange which I really discovered yesterday ,that he really lost his influence on me, that I really have enough pain from him, that I don’t love him anymore, that I really and finally did it ,make myself really hate him that much, I felt that he really lost a lot by losing me, cause if he really searched a lot in the whole world will not find anyone loved him, as I really did, will not find any more cause it's really very rare nowadays, I know that and I am very sure of it, also I realize that I am really froze inside me, I am used to run to him whenever he really appears whatever he had did, whatever he made to me, as if I decided to forgive him on anything, he really did to me, but I can’t anymore, really I am just filled up can’t take it anymore, really I am really done from him and from all, can’t really take a tiny thing from any one, I am really on the top, no place inside me to be really hurt in it, I am really filled, I am all scared everywhere, so it’s really the end, I know that despite of the fact that I really loved him so, and forgave him a lot, but really what he really done to me is really beyond any patience, beyond any love, beyond any human capability, so really sorry I can’t take this anymore even for a millions.