MAI AND THE DEIT

HI BLOGYI HOW ARE YOU THIS MORNING, you know what I didn't slept yet, I know that it’s really 10 in the morning, but believe me blogyi I tried very much to sleep but really couldn’t what so ever ,don’t know why as if sleeping ran out of me, as if I am asking for something harsh but really can't sleep at all, I am trying really with all my power but, I really think I will collapse at the very end cause my system will not take the lack of sleeping for long, it will collapse I guess that but, I guess this sleeping issue is really getting worse, at first I used to sleep 2 or 3 hours a day now I couldn't sleep at all what shall I do now ,do I have to surrender to this case and believes that sleeping now really became a hard dram to get ,or what anyway, I were staying at home for 6 weeks now, these six weeks were very harsh to me, I really felt as they were years but really felt they were too long also, I have a very bad habit when I am upset I used to eat specially sugary things they used to makes me feels really better, they give me power to fight the sadness and give me power to resume my life with a little smile on my face ,specially chocolate its really my favorite ,I adore it so much its magical to me ,I really feels it just put me in a very good mood when I have some, but really I love it very much and just love its influence on me, makes me feels as if I am really dreaming up high, especially when it's nice dark tasty one, I love it very much I adore it, but it really can’t eat a lot cause it's very bad in gaining weight, and I am really afraid of this problem I hate to gain weight, when I do I feels very upset feels very bad about myself, and also I feels very sad too, I hate to look in the mirror too cause ,I really hate to look in the mirror and find some meat where it didn’t belong, really but really sitting at home made me gain some weight, and this really makes me felt bad about myself, so I decided to go back to my diet and back to my diet pills again ,this pills are really magical they made me feels that I am not hungry at all, and when I even dare to eat I just can’t ,I guess it’s really closing my stomach very much to make me not thinking at all in food, so I really likes this pills even they makes me feel sick and my stomach hurt a little, but they really had good effect on me and really help me in losing weight by ,it’s a nice and easy to lose weight with, I am trying so much cause losing weight makes me feel better and, I really need to feels better right now, so I need to lose weight even if diet makes the person feels depressed but just in the beginning, I guess but when it shows its results and the cloths become baggy, I feels very nice about it ,and feels as if I really want to continue to feel better and better so just prey for me .