GAMBLING BETTER THEN DYING ALONE BY THE CORNER

GOOD MORNING BLOGYI, how you are just fine, I am fine thanks god, it’s ok I think but really have a very strange feeling ,how come you don’t know someone at all but when you heard his voice for the first time you find yourself just felt, that you know him long time ago, as if he is your friend for years as if you talked to him millions of times before ,but this is not true at all he is a total stranger to you, I guess it’s something in the human chemistry that makes you feels that way ,I guess that souls have strange way to communicate with each other they have some kind of links out there with no explanation at all ,that’s made you feels that you are half crazy ,just half cause you have the feeling of familiarity that makes you feels so strange why ?why it really happens? I don’t know why? but I guess everything in this world really have a reason this reason the only one who really knows is god, but this feeling really exist regardless of these persons may have different countries or may be talking different languages or may be different religious, but really strange that you really can talk to someone who is really a total stranger to you as if he is your body for years, you can share with him a lot of personal details in your life, this details which you kept for yourself for years as if they are your top secrets ,you find yourself opening your heart to him with no limits at all,? This is what’s really strange is that how come it happens so easily? Sometimes it takes years to happen or may be it never happens at all, then how come? that’s really odd the feeling that someone open your inner world and not just opened it but he really jumped into it and you let him to or maybe you took his hand to do so as if you really wanted him to do so ?is that crazy? is that normal even at all ?I guess it's really normal when you really feels very lonely you are really searching for someone to share something with you I really miss the feeling to talk to something human no offence blogyi but may be its a normal feeling to feel, so please don’t be upset please you will be my friend for ever but if you aren't so gallous from me having another friends, but I guess not ,I know that you love me blogyi and hope the best for me and hope to see me happy, I know that friendship would really makes me happy and makes me feels not that sad not that alone I know that loneliness makes me worse so, I think getting out of my solitary will be better for me to be not alone specially in this period of my life, anyway I am really trying with all my effort, so I think if I really succeed in that will be much better that's really what I think so ,what do you think blogyi ,am I right or just being unrealistic as usually, I think I am so blind trying to find my way in the darkness with no one to help at all ,I know it took a lot of effort to do so but, I guess doing it this way better then someone to help me ,then hurt me again so, I guess it’s a difficult equation contains a lot of rescue but, I guess life as a whole is a rescue, it’s just a gamble game a big one actually you gamble in it but not with a small value, you really gamble with your whole life, but if you decided to be afraid near the wall will die there watching and never been a part of this life and will live and die by the corner alone too feeling so pathetic and self piety, so I think gambling is much better then dying this way alone by the corner with no one even notice that you are dead .