DO YOU KNOW WHAT REALLY MAKES ME SAD

HI BLOGYI I hope I am not disturbing you but I really know that you are my only shelter I have, you are the only ears I have you are the only hug I have you the only tender touch I have sorry but I know that I lien a lot on you lately please forgive me but it’s really the truth cause I have no one but you blogyi what really makes me feel sad is that I can't find someone who really understand me understand my thoughts and my feelings my needs and my inner language don’t know why am I really that difficult you know I am very clear can be easily read but really blogyi why is this happening to me??? I am not asking for too much I am not I just ask for someone sincere someone who really care to be there someone feels me, be there for me try with a little effort to help, to have a little time may be seconds to be there for me, why is that so difficult? If it is, then, why I am not really convinced that it is?? I don’t ask for the impossible I know that everyone has his own life his own concerns his own way of living I just want to feel that I am not alone, I am a part of something even a tiny part but I really want to feel that I belong to someone or to something is that too much why do people really treats me as if I am mad I am not I am just looking for the feeling of secure of the company of someone I just want to be worm and safe with no obligations from this person what so ever, is that too much to ask for to be something valuable to be just something cared for to be something really with little attention, I don’t know what’s really wrong blogyi am I really asking for too much I am just asking to be listen to be not alone to be cared for to be a part of something better is that too much really tell me cause I am really fucked from this feeling everyone really looks to me as if I am a crazy person how are you dare to ask? How are you daring to dream? How are you daring to wish? I just dream cause I really didn't find this dream, is it too much to dream of something you really feels that you will never have in your life, if I really stop dreaming I really might die cause dreaming is the only thing which really make my life a little easier, and it makes me want to wake up in the morning cause may be today will be better than yesterday, if I didn't dream then why I wake up? why do I live what so ever with knowing that life will be worse and worse don’t know blogyi am I that crazy to dare and dream should I stop dreaming and go somewhere and die alone should I ??