Are you so proud of yourself

Hi Blogyi how are you today how you are just fine not like me Iam really today in a very bad mood awful one actually but what shall Ido I woke up this morning feeling very sad very alone feeling a lot of tears inside me so I really cried a lot i know that crying really wash the soul inside out but i am really in a very bad mood cant tell you how worse but i am really upset today from everything i really feels as if i am dieing but really in slow motion as if someone put a knife inside my heart and left there when i move even for a little bit it really hurt it enters more and more without any mercy really i am astonished this two days i am reallycriticized by a lot of people these people don't know me at all to really judge me to really accuse me and treat me as if i am really a made person who really need to be treated or to be hang in a public square why do people are judging me so cruelly i didn't even hurt nobody
i didn't stab anyone i didn't judge anyone or really told him to go and through himself anywhere as punishment for his fault cause i know that i cant judge no one
cause i am not really better then anyone from those i am really judging but i am really sad why do people are really cruel and mean to me all though i never did this to anyone never hurt never stabbed anyone but the strange thing that they are really feeling very nice about really doing this to me who gave them the right to judge to stab to kill tocriticize i did i guess by asking to have some friends is thisfriendship nowadays if it is i am really sorry for asking for it if i really knew that i would have spared myself all of this and kept inside myself its better for me and for them or they are really feeling happy doing this to me and see me really hurt and really crying as if it is some kind of a victorytheir really achieved on so if it is congratulations friend you really did it i am so proud of u SO are you that happy proud of what you did if it is really thanks
its really good for you