I Am In A Real Mess

Good morning everyone hope everything is fine this days I am really busy have tones of work to do a lot of actually but i am trying to finish it in its time really but don't think really i could do it. its really harsh but i love the hardmissions so i am doing all my best but I have really astrange feeling I don't feel chatting anymore i feels as if i had some kind of something is really keeping away from it and from talking and knowing anyone don't know why i know that's chatting is my only connection with this world i have no one except on it i know if i really stops thechatting i will be totally alone without even anyone to really ask about me even by phone nor any friends i guess thisfeeling came to be cause i met really bad ones on this chat so i am kind of unhappy of it don't feel happy with chattinganymore so its really not easy to decide by yourself to shut the door on myself for ever but the feeling is here by itself without feeling any difficulty in really doing it or in make it happens may be I am passing through a darkperiod and it will finish may be or may be not may be i am really meant to be alone in the very end without even have a dog to really ask about me so the question is am reallymeant to be alone is it really better for me to be i think being alone is difficult but the worse then really being alone is to be with someone really don't love u don't want youdon't see you or feel you at all as if you are really some kind of air or as if u really don't exist so don't know is thatfeeling will lats or not but what i really know its not really a very bad feeling to feel that you want to shrink inside yourself needing nothing from that world at all i really mean at all