Dear Blogyi

I am just here and now cause I want to tell you that dear blogyi I am really going to miss you so you know that you are my only friend I really going to miss you miss talking to you to puers all of my soul mind inside you without even you just refused to hear me once or refuse to listen to me even once I am traveling to Alex tomorrow inshallah hoping that travel will clear my mind and make me feels better you know blogyi I am always traveling cause of my son I feels as if i am really making him unhappy kid I am wallahy trying with all my best to make him really happy but sometimes I fails and sometimes I really make it but don't know I know that i will travel alone also with all my loneliness and sorrow with me but anyway i realize that change is really healthy and i know that when i wake up not seeing my house in Cairo around must really makes me feels better cause I am really feeling board very board even if our flat there had a lot of memories of me with my latest husband even if but I really need to change and i also guess that the places are not part of our bad experience they don't really have no fault and also they don't share with us in our failure and also in our success so because of all of that and because of my Adorne's to the sea and to sitting by the sea I really feels its really washing me inside out with his waves his water his salt from all my sadness my misery and my failuer through out my whole life so that I really hopes that would be a happy journey and i would really come back happy and someone else not as the person I left I just hope so from the bottom of my heart