SISTERHOOD FEELING

Dear blogyi today was a very weird day half of it was really nice really strange my sister Sarah came and visit us today at home as usually she came to visit for a little while every week she was married a month ago for the first time I felt that she really cares for me I know that we are sisters but she used to be an inner person who always lives inside herself all the time she is like that long time ago so i really got used to it she never ask about me even by phone I know that she is really busy with her husband and her marriage and house of course she is a new bride of course so she had a lot of stuff to do I really respect this a lot so i respect the distance she is putting in between cause I really hate the feeling that i am pushing myself on someone even if she is my own sister i hate the feeling of being unwanted it really hurt me a lot too bad too deep for me so today I were very depressed in the early morning so my saif was getting to his grandpa today and will stay there for 2 days and i am all alone i know that my son is really a pain in the ace but I really love i really sometimes became so nervous on him nowadays but he is really patient with me he is the only one who loves me on myself so my sister came Ii told her I will go with her as if I will go out with her and will go anywhere specially today is a holiday and I hate to disturb her husband on his holiday but i really found her very welcoming me to go with her to visit her house I really didn't visit her before and also she didn't invite me i know that she really loves Ahmed my brother a lot then me I am the biggest sister and the less loved from the whole house so she welcome me a lot and also was very happy when i went to her house i really were happy to feel that way I missed be welcomed by anyone specially my sister but really when I went there and saw her house i were very happy for her i love her so sometimes I really wished that she would be nearer to me and love me as if I really love her not like Ahmed of course but really half of him will be more then enough so I were happy their I felt homey happy with her and also with her husband he is really a nice person I feel that he is really a man in days men are really rare so I have lunch with them and stayed there with them till noon but I were really happy for feeling this sisterhood feeling I really missed it so and I also I am really feels that I had a new brother in our family this one is Shamel so i felt relaxed and relived I were happy cause they really welcomed me and made me felt as if I were really home so really thanks a lot for this feeling but I really think its really was feeling it about 30 years but i guess better late then never god bless you Sarah and Shamel and keep you safe and always be with each other i really love and thanks again