AUGUST IN COMING

AUGUST IN COMING

August is coming fucks i think you all wonder what so special about August not that much really its just my birthday so its not that special actually I don't love that data very much i think it turns all my sadness and grief on don't know the reason but i really think cause i am alone don't have someone to remember it or to be happy with to share it with me to care enough to give me even a flower ladies ans gentlemen i just get so sad on it so depressed so lonely so I really don't like this day its the 25th really so i know its really will be in Ramadan so its a good reason to not celebrate it or make a party will i never make a party really but I really don't feel that it will be this year any different then the other years but i really guess being alone a lot better then be with someone acting caring and sharing on you cause one day you will open your eyes and find yourself alone in this world don't have one to be near beside I think one day when i grew up and my hair turn into white i will be alone too don't have anyone to lien on or to be next to me in my entire life its really a sad life to be by myself with no one around no one cares enough to be really there anyway i know that everything in this life has a reason may be we don't see it but god see it so it is foe our own good to be like that its god will and i have faith in his will i know that he really loves me and really choose what really better for me so i am really happy with my god choice for me so its really OK alhamdolllah

FANWOS RAMADAN

RAMADAN KAREEM

Hi blogyi its really hot nowadays I don't know how really are we suppose to mange this hotness its really hard I don't know its really very strange weather very hot also Ramadan is in his way so really fasting in this hot god really with us in Ramadan I know that god will be really with us very much may be its really hot to take a lot of hasanat by this hot so that it will be difficult god really help us and be with us in that anyway its a nice month full of religious things from el fanwos to the Tarawah to fasting till the Eid and the kahk its really nice traditions i cant wait to by the new fanwos of 2009

SO I GUESS THE MSTREY IS OVER

HI blogyi finally I succeed in putting a picture in my blog in order to really know how do I really look like so here I am I guess the mystery is over but really its a nice thing to be very clear as Crystal to all so I guess its really I surprise really enjoy it

I AM MAI

WHAT 'S UP??????????????????????

Strange question when someone really hurt u and till u whats up ?????????as if you are really crazy person imagining things up or as if you really see something don't exist at all why do you think that he ever care he didn't care at all so why will he start caring now when you are really nothing what will make be a thing one time the nothing thing will be always nothing that's really life if you start nothing you will be always a nothing all your life so really believe me being somebody a lot better then being a nothing for someone really meant someone to you but i guess its really cause you are really a dumb person don't have any mark in your life so how are you going to mark in his life although you didn't mark in your own life so believe me love your self to be really loved respect her to be respected by the others have a print in your own life to have a print in others lives so i must really stop stop dealing with others till i treat my problems with myself at first its really OK to do so and to stop trusting people in such naive attitude in order to stop being hurt and pathetic for change

ACTING ON MYSELF

We all know that acting is really good actually its a great talent not all of us have really so its really a nice thing to really have but everything have a good part and a dark part the good part if u really talk the acting as its a talent or just work in this way its really good and made a lot of money too and famous also so its great i think but its dark side is the one i really have this part is also a talent but its very bad one the worse actually which is acting on myself don't no its a gift or a course but its really very good in me i really do it in a very good way so hi guess i am talented in it i am really a professional in acting on myself and on stretching things up which i know that its really a failure ones and stretch them for a very very long way as if i am really enjoying that enjoying the bad things happening want them to happen to me longer and longer i think this is a sikic problem need really to be treated i know that very much its torchering yourself even if it hurts a lot but its OK don't know why do i take it really i talk to someone and i really know that this someone is not good with me and i will at at least be hurt by him but really i love to give it a try with the fact that i really know that i will be really hurt severely but i enter to get hurt as if i really have parts in me really have a place inside me which is really not hurt really i am full of scars but even if i still try to get myself killed i like the ones who really have nails to hurt me with as if i want to see someone very bad just to kill me a t once and relive me from all that i guess it around way to kill myself as if indirect u turn but without telling myself that i really do that i guess i really make fun of myself as i am committed suicide with someone else hands but really i couldn't keeping it from happening i really pushing myself to do it very much as if i am really a Coward to do this by myself as if i am with no arm to do so but i search for the hand that could do it ins tide of me am really sick person am i really need help if i really need i will not talk it don't know why but i will not really take it cause i am just fine its a talent i have i guess i will die with it its my weapon to die with

احــــبـــــتـــــه عــــشـــــــقــتـــــه وعــــبـــــدتــــــــــة

نزلت الستارة ولكن يا خسارة

فصفق الجميع علي العرض الحزين

فقد كانت سعيدة تطير كالفراشة

تطير في سعادة تطير في حماسة

فتلهو وتلعب وترقص كالقيثارة

حتي راته احبته عشقته وعبدته

احبت وجودة احبت ظهورة

احبت حنينه احبت انينه

احبت جراحه احبت صراعة

احبت غروره احبت عبوسة

احبته عشقته عبدته

وعشقت النوم بين ذراعيه

والرقص عشقا بين يديه

وعشقت طعم شفتيه

وعشقت نشوتها وحنينها إليه

احبته عشقته و عبدتة

احبت نظرتة الحانيه

ولمستة الناعمة

وشفتيه الرائعة

ووداعته الهائمه

وعذوبته الفاتنه

احبته وعشقته وعبدته

لكن ذات يوم لتصحو

لتبحث وتبحث وتبحث

ولكن لم تجده

تبخر في الهواء دون اي انذار

تبخر وابتعد دون اي اعذار

اخذ السعادة والنشوة و الابتسامة

وبقيت وحيدة هائمه شريدة

تعيش في ذاكراها واوقاته السعيدة

فتحيا علي بقايا لم تجد سواها

وتحيا لتعذب بذاكراها الاليمه

ما الحب الا عذاب وانهياراً

وماهو الا ثوانً لتفيق علي الحقيقة

حقيقه اليمه مدمرة حزينة

لتحيا دون املاً او عشقاً وحيدة

فـــــــي عـــــــــيـــــــنــــــيـــــــك

في عينيك حزناً دفين

حنياً وعشقاً وحباً قديم

وقلباً يحبو بهماً ثقيل

فينبض الماً وعشقاً كبير

يثور ويبحث بلهف شديد

عن من يحب ومن يستميل

فالطفل يصرخ ويستيجر

من هم حباً ووعشقاً شديد

فهل من مجيب

فهل من يدوي جرحه البليغ

فهل من يطيب عشقه الاليم

فهل من يقوي طفل صغير

طفل يعاني يصرخ انين

طفل حزيناً وعبدا سجين

سجيناً لعشقاً ينبض حنين

سجيناً لقلباً ينزف ويدمي

ويشقي ويبكي في صمت رهيب

ففي عينيك حزناً دفين

يكوي القلوب

يدمي العيون

يحرق جفون

ويكسر فؤاد كل محيط

حبيبي لا تقلق ستشفي قريب

سيكبر طفلك ويركد سعيد في كل لحظة تمر عليك

ستصبح اقوي وتصبح سعيد

لــــــن ابــــــيــــــع العـــــمـــــر

لا تشعرنى كان عمرى ان عمرى كان عندك ليلة
ومضت كما يمضى الزمن
فالعمر بعدك لحظة خرساء تسبح فى الوجود بلا وطن
لا تشعرينى اننى اصبحت يوما عابرا وطويته
انا لا ابيع العمر يا عمرى ولا ارضى الثمن
العش تحلمه الرياح يضيق وجه الارض
ترتعد الطيور تدور تبحث عن سكن
ماذا سيبقى الحزن فى قلب جريح غير اطلال الشجن
مازلت اذكر وجهك الفضى
حين اتيت خلف الليل نهرا من شعاع
كم كان طيفك يحتوينى من ظلال الخوف
كيف الأن يلقينى الى هذا الضياع
امضى على الطرفات وحدى العن الأقدار
القى بعض اخفاقى على هذا القناع
لا تشعرينى اننى اخطأت حين اتيت اليك التمس الأمان
فوجدت خلف الجنة الخضراء
أنقاضا وأطلالاً وخوفاً وامتهان
لاتشعرينى اننى صليت فى بيت ردىء ثم أخطأت المكان
انىجعلتك توبتى فلقد رأيتك فى صلاتى بعض إيمانى
رأيتك فى ضياعى أمنية
لا تشعرينى أن حبك كان اكبر معصية
قولى سئمنا ربما قولى كرهنا ربما
قولى بأنى كنت وهما او خيالا فى حياتك
لكن بربك لا تقولى ان عمرى كان عندك ليلة من أمنياتك
ماعدت املك من زمانى غير ما عشنا معا
لا تشعرينى اننى ما كنت شيئا غير تأكيدا لذاتك
إنى احبك آه ما أقسى النهاية
قد كنت عندك ليلة ثم انتهت كل الرواية
هذا جنين الحب احمله قتيلا من ترى ارتكب الجناية
الحب عندى كعبة والحب بين يديك يا عمرى هواية
الله يعلم اننى يوما وهبتك كل ما عندى وصدقت الحكاية
ان كنت عندك ليلة قد كنت فى عمرى النهاية والبداية
والله يهدى من يشاء وليس لى سر الهداية

الــــــعــــــشـــــق الـــــــقــــاســــــــــــى

اني عشقتك و اتخذت قراري

فلمن اقدم يا ترى اعذاري

لا سلطة في الحب تعلو

سلطتي

فألرأي رأي و الخيار خياري

هذه احاسيسي فلا تتدخلي ارجوك

بين البحر و البحار

انا النساء جعلتهن خواتم باصابعي

و كواكب بمداري

اني احبك دون اي تحفظ

و اعيش فيك ولادتي و دمار

ان كان عندي ما اقوله

فسأقوله للواحد القهار

ماذا اخاف و من اخاف انا الذي

نام الزمان على صدى اوتاري

سافرت من بحر النساء و لم ازل

من يومها مقطوعة اخباري

انا جيد جدا اذا احببتني

فتعلمي ان تفهمي اطواري

ما عاد ينفعك البكاء و لاسى

فلقد اتخذت قراري

ANGALIC SMILE AND A DARK SIDE

Really how come that a nice person would really with double character one of them is really angelic delicate one nice calm so childish so innocent as a baby just born for days so nice so quiet so sad with angelic smile with a tender touch with a great hug great cute baby face with a terrific smile when he really smiles the whole world do too with really strong personality with really handsome look with really an adorable feeling with he is just around he is really full of nice and good things with his sad eyes which really gave him a sexy and attractive looking even if you spent hours with the time really pass with him as if it really have wings from passing over very quickly with and also he left his handsome bier an chived which really gives him an untidy look but really very sexy too how come this beauty have a dark side he has one believe me but really strange one cause how a balanced gay with a big brain had really a dark side I really don't believe myself when I really notice that its very weired to know that but really the very strange thing that that I really can't find to it any explanation is why when he really vainshed i really miss him a lot why is that cause I think he is really cute really nice really i don't know why but its really strange feeling to feels it but I guess its OK very OK cause he is only the hero of my dreams he is only an imaginary friend but what a friend i really am very happy to have such a hero to my dreams good for me

انـــا مــتــــخـــلـــقــتـــش بـــكـــرهــــــــك

انا متخلقتش بكرهك

علشان يا دنيا تعزبينى

حاولت مره افهمك

ولعبتى بيا زلتينى

انا متخلقتش بكرهك

علشان يا دنيا تعزبينى

حاولت مره افهمك

ولعبتى بيا زلتينى

ليه حالك ميزانه اختل

ليه فيكى الضعيف متزل

وبتستقوى ليه على الكل

انتى يا دنيا اقسيا علينا

ديما تفرحى لدموعى

خارجه تملى ليه عن طوعى

ليه بتكسرى فى ضلوعى

ليه بتحبى دمع عينينا عينينا

كرهتى الحياه فى عينيا

قلبتى المواجع فيا

وجراحك كتيره عليا

وصاحبنى الجراح والهم

ممكن فى هموم هزتنى

جوايا الام هزتنى

وانا عينى لو طوعتنى حبكى بدل دموعى دم

اه اه اه اه

ايامى فيكى بعدها

والحزن عندى يا دنيا عااااااادى

دانا كل حاجه بحبها

بسهوله بتضيع من قصااااادى

ايامى فيكى بعدها

والحزن عندى يا دنيا عااااااادى

دانا كل حاجه بحبها

بسهوله بتضيع من قصااااادى

دوسى عليا واجرحى اكتر

ظلمك خلى املى اتكسر

يلا هى موته ولا اكتر

بيعى ويخونى قلبى اتعود

دايما بس بتعانديى

لويه دراعى وبتأذينى

شىء يرضينى

غدرك فيا طعمه يموووووووووت

ااااااااااه

اقرب ناس تخون وتبيع

والطيب بيراحت ضميره اتهز

ولا واحد بغيره يحس كله يهمه نفسه وبس

والخير ضاع خلاص جووووواكى

ااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااة

الــــــمـــــرايــــــــــــــا

هتعمل ايه لو نمت يوم وصحيت
بصيت وشفت نفسك فى المرايا بكيت
جواك سؤال تصرخ تقول انا مين انا مين
انا زى ما انا ولا اتقسمت اتنين وبعدين
وبعدين قول ياللى فى المرايا فهمنى ايه الحكاية
فرحان تعبان مرتاح
لما حاجات كتير فى حياتنا اتسببت فى حيرتنا
وادينا عايشين راضيين جايين ورايحين
هتعمل ايه لوهتعمل ايه لو نمت يوم وصحيت

بصيت وشفت نفسك فى المرايا بكيت
جواك سؤال تصرخ تقول انا مين انا مين
انا زى ما انا ولا اتقسمت اتنين وبعدين
وبعدين قول ياللى فى المرايا فهمنى ايه الحكاية
فرحان تعبان مرتاح
لما حاجات كتير فى حياتنا اتسببت فى حيرتنا
وادينا عايشين راضيين جايين ورايحين
هتعمل ايه لو نمت يوم وصحيت
ولقيت اقرب ماليك فى الدنيا مش حواليك
هو انت مين اللى عملت ده فيه كده فيه
مش انت ولا فى حد غمى عنيك وبعدين
بعدين قول ياللى فى المرايا فهمنى ايه الحكاية
فرحان تعبان مرتاح
لما حاجات كتير فى حياتنا اتسببت فى حيرتنا
وادينا عايشين راضيين جايين ورايحين

نمت يوم وصحيت
ولقيت اقرب ماليك فى الدنيا مش حواليك
هو انت مين اللى عملت ده فيه كده فيه
مش انت ولا فى حد غمى عنيك وبعدين
بعدين قول ياللى فى المرايا فهمنى ايه الحكاية
فرحان تعبان مرتاح
لما حاجات كتير فى حياتنا اتسببت فى حيرتنا
وادينا عايشين راضيين جايين ورايحين

HUMAN PAIN KILLER PILL FOR GOD SACK

This is really a weird story I am about to tell now but really blogyi I am not used to keep anything from you I used to talk to you frankly and honestly too so this story I am about to tell is really strange it is about a girl this girl is in a bad mood very bad one so she really met a gay this gay she didn't knew him at all she was walking in the street in this mood he was in a car sitting beside a friend this friend was having a long phone call so the other one was really sad thinking in deep think she guess so that he really didn't even notice this girl at all but she was crying deep so she found him in front of her so she knocked on his window he opened the window and asked her whats wrong she told him to step out of the car this person was very surprised he stepped out asking what is she really told him i am so sad need to talk very much he told here that he is really busy now we can talk later and she was very embarrassed of what she done really but he asked for her mob number so she gave it to him and she totally know that he really asked about only to make her feel better or as if he really cares she went home in a very bad shape but after about two hours he really called her telling her where are you are you home I were really worried about you she was really on shock worry about me that's really odd cause of this sentence she cried for hours after that durning the call the mob god dams it was disconnected cause of the battery so she charged it hoping that he really calls again without knowing why she really hoped so any way he called about 1 they talked a little they decided to continue on the Internet by chatting their really chat till dawn he was really cute nice calm and sensitive but was 4 years younger really it was the first time she talks with someone younger she always reject this theory or even in the same age so don't know why she really felt relieve with she slept Happy that night as a baby in her bed wake up waiting for him to call as he promised but he didn't she was really upset she felt as if yesterday was really a dream but at least he called at about 5 tilling her his sorry can u meet to talk she wanted really to see him to talk face to face nice feeling she really miss this feeling a lot but really she felt that he was sad a lot not happy even if his cute face may show a lot of unhappiness she really felt safe with him even if he was a stranger to her she really felt that he is a real man protected beside him really but really he was sad cause of was coming out of a love story with a bad end even if the happy feeling she felt beside him as if she knew him from a long time but she felt bad cause she really felt that

SHE WAS JUST A PAIN KILLER PILL HE IS TALKING IT CAUSE HE IS REALLY HURT CAUSE OF HIS LOVE STORY IS THAT FAIR REALLY THAT SHE PUT HERSELF IN THIS SITUATION ITS REALLY A HUMILIATED ONE TO FEEL THAT EVERY WORD EVERY TOUCH EVERY NICE WORD HE IS REALLY SAYING CAUSE OF SYMPATHY AND CAUSE SHE IS A PILL DOES REALLY ANYONE DESERVE TO FEEL THAT WAY THAT SHE IS SOMETHING TAKEN TO REALLY CALM THE PAIN DOWN AND WHEN THE PAIN IS OVER SHE WILL BE REALLY THROWN AS ANY BOTTLE OF PILLS TH ROUGHEN IN THE GAR BADE BUT THE ONLY DIFFERENT IS THAT PILL IS A HUMAN BILL WITH FLASH AND BLOOD I GUESS ITS REALLY PATHETIC WHAT SHE IS DOING TO HER SELF SHE IS KILLING HERSELF BUT IN SLOW MOTION REALLY GOOD FOR YOU GIRL REALLY A CLAP AND A BRAVOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO