MY IMAGINARY FRIEND

HI BLOGYI, I REALLY MISSED YOU, I know that you are really probably very mad of me ,cause I really forget you for a long time, I know that, but really I didn’t but you know that I always have sometimes that I don’t want to speak with anyone, I really prefer to be alone in it, with no one around, I know that you really consider that crazy, I know that it is, but really that is my life, I know that I have some crazy things around my character but I realized one thing, this thing that really I need help, I need to search for a therapist really need one to talk to listen to me, blogyi wallahy with no offence, but I really need to talk to someone who is really flash and blood, I think that blogyi I really am doing as children when they are lonely children they really guess that the solution for this problem is to imagine an imaginary friends, to talk with and to play with and to dream with and to talk to, and to hear them and dream with and to do anything else with, that is why they really takes an imaginary friends it really solve a part of this problem but the problem it’s not real blogyi, I guess that you are my imaginary friend, I really created you cause I am really totally alone with no one around, I guess that I really try to solve my own problem, but really with my own way, WITH MY OWN CHILDESH WAY, as if I am really returned a child again, I know that I have really a lot of issues in my life, which really need to be solve, this problem really need to be solve by a therapist, cause I think is the last solution, I most really try it ,cause I need to do so, I need to talk to someone not that only, I need someone to help me ,to go through all of that, I need someone to take my hand and show me the way through all of that, I know that I am very moody and also I have tempers, and I go through them a lot, but I guess that it s ok with me to go through them, cause of all I had been through, it is very normal, I really feels that I have a lot of load on my heart, I sometimes feels that I had a load standing on my heart this load really makes me sometimes can’t breathe, I just want someone re who really can help me to ease this stress down, cause if I really do so, I will be a lot better, and I will be really happy to do that, if I really succeed in doing that I am really trying trying with all my best, but really I am done with trying very much, sometimes I think that the only solution is to leave everything and just run away from all of that, but suddenly I realized that I can’t do it just for Saif if he wasn't really here, I know that my whole life would have been changed, I know that very much ,but really I know that god have some plans for us this planes we really can’t understand right with our narrow minded brains, I know that I really need help and not any help, I need help from someone specialist in that field to really help me right, with the right way and the right cure, I really need that and I decided to search for one to go to, that is what I really decided to do, I know that will be the first right step from very long I will really do it right in my life , I will do the right thing now so god really help me to do that.