HAVE YOU EVER FELT

HI BLOGYI ,I know that it had been a while since I wrote something ,or since I really felt that I had something to tell you even, I know that this period was really difficult to me without no specific reasons, I guess but really I were very upset, that didn't want to talk with anyone even you blogyi but really I am glad that I will start my new work next week cause I know that I really needed that, I really need to get out this shield, before I really comate suicide, I am really depressed really but usually, when I am, I have no one to speak with, I know that it’s really hard ,when this happens to me, but when this happens I prefer loneliness, I stop talking with every one even with the people that I live with them in my own house, but really it’s very hard this time, it’s different then every time, I tried hard this time, but really it didn't work out, so I decided to let the wind take my boat to whatever it decide to takes me, and to any place it really wanted to takes me to, as if I am a piece of paper with no well at all ,with no resistance at all ,with no defense what so ever, I really feels that I am helpless.

Have you ever felt that you can't breathe feels that a stone is really put on your heart makes you feels that your heart bits is not normal as if they are running behind each other in a race .

Have you ever felt that you are alone with no one around?

Have you ever felt that the world is an awful place with no one to hug you?

Have you ever felt that you want to scream with a loud voice but without scaring the people around?

Have you ever felt that you are a nothing?

Have you ever felt that you are with no self defense at all with a war around you?

Have you ever felt that you are by the corner of life?

Have you ever felt that you are really pathetic?

Have you ever felt that you are worthless to no one?

Have you ever felt that you want to stand on the highest edge in Cairo and throw yourself down watching your body flies in the air with you really knowing that when you really hit the ground you will be million pieces?

Have you ever felt that you want nothing from anyone?

Have you ever felt that you are a piece of shit in this life?

Have you ever wanted to vanish?

Have you ever wanted to stay near a wall and never see or talk to anyone?

Have you ever felt that you can't hear any one or talk to anyone?

Have you ever want just to die

Have you ever felt that you are so broken that you are in pieces?

Have you ever felt that you really need t scream high load but you really have no voice to do so?

Have you ever felt that you really not happy what so ever

Have you ever felt that you don’t find yourself with no one?

Have you ever lost faith in everything around?

Have you ever hate love?

Have you ever hates being with someone causes you really afraid of him

Have you ever felt that you really can’t sleep on your own bed?

Have you ever felt that you can’t breathe in the widest place in the whole world?

Have you ever felt that you really have no heart with without any soul?

Have you ever felt that you really dead

Have you ever felt that you just want to run away from everything from everyone?

Have you ever felt that you are empty from inside?

Have you ever felt that you are just a Skelton but empty from the inside

Have you ever wishes that you really die

Have you felt this feelings, I really hope not, because it’s a very awful feeling to feels but I know that I will survive, I am really used to this shit throughout my whole life ,and I know that it will takes it’s time, and just go away, so I will really keep on silence tell it really passes by .