MISSING A DEAR FRIEND

LOST, it’s really a strange word lost its really a very big thing make us all feels very confused, and very afraid from the next step coming toward us, but it’s really very tuff word you know why, cause its very harsh on someone to feel lost among everything familiar around him ,lost in the middle of his house, in the middle of his parents in the middle of his family, in the middle of all the people he must really feels that they are family to him, but lost among them all is really very hard on us all, I don’t know how really I can express myself in it but really it’s very tuff feeling you know what I know that I met a lot of people recently in my new work, but really I find that I am losing a lot around me now, you know what I really miss a lot my friend my only one ,really I know that it’s really hard that I have only one friend and one only, you know what I really miss that he was the only person caring about me, and the only person was there for me and the only one who really made me feel that I really were his focus of attention ,and he used really to ask about me care and share everything with me, that made me really felt very good about myself, and also happy about myself, so I guess when he had his problems he totally forget about me inside this circle of problems, and his own concerns so I guess that I really missed him a lot, don’t know why but really I used to talk to him a lot, as we used to talk a lot at night with each other, I guess for hours but really I miss talking to him and miss his care and his share too, so I guess I almost lost my friend this friend I really feels very sad about losing him ,but really I don’t like to tell him that cause I really hate begging very much, and also I really hate to search for attention ,if this attention really gone then I don’t need it anymore, I guess this is the reason I think that I can’t tell him a word about it even he really calls me every day, but if feels that I lost some one really was very near from myself very much I think, I don’t know what I feels that he really became so cold he really calls but really as some kind of duty, or not to make me sad, I know that really kind of caring but really I need more and more care then that, I know that friends aren't responsible for that kind of share or care, but I really miss him a lot and I wish he really back to his nature with me, cause I were really loving it, cause I really felt that I am not alone when he really around, but you know what I wish my friend is really back, I missed him a lot