NOT HAPPY WHAT SO EVER

YOU know what I am not really happy about that, I will be really separated from my friends cause we will open a new branch for our company, it will be in el mohandesen ,so they will all join the new branch, but I will work in the old one, that is really what I am not very happy about, cause I know that I will be alone again, I were really happy with my new friends, and also hopped to stay with them, and that we all work in the same place together, but really will never happens , so I must really except this fact, I will really try to do that but really, I am not very happy with it at all don't know why, but it is the truth and I must really try to deal with this fact, this is what I am trying to do in this period, but really I am not happy at all with it, don't know why I am still feeling that I am totally a stranger in this new work, I am really try to be friendly and I am also trying to feel that I am in a place which is very familiar to me, but I really cant do this don't know why, I feels like there is a wall standing between me and between doing this, I don't know why but this is really the truth, I am really dealing with this fact now, I have some friends but I am still feels that I am totally a stranger for them, I cant really feel as if I am really am home, or as if I am really happy, cause I am really not happy with this all, but I know that nothing really nowadays makes me feels happy, I also have a lot of problems at home, I had a fight with my mum,I really feels that I am totally a stranger in my own house, I live there and I sleep there as if I am in a hotel not more not less,I feels that I am really alone with no one what so ever don't know why is that, but really I am NOT feeling happy what so ever, the reason I guess is me, cause I am sad deep inside nothing can really change this fact, and the funny thing is that what ever I do, where ever I go, what ever I eat what ever I had, I don't feel it what so ever, don't really know why, I really hate this feeling but its my own feeling, don't know how I can really describe it, but it is really the truth what so ever I am not happy at all