BOILED AND MIXED INTO PIECES

Good morning all , well I am very tired and sleepy too,don't know all of this laziness from where, I only know one thing,don't know all the night long I dreamed around thousands of bad dreams ,some dreams from my childhood others from my teenage, I don't know what is really happening in my head and brain, I think my brain is very much boiled and after that was put in a mixer in order to be cut into little pieces, well I really wake up everyday as if I was in a war not sleeping in my own bed, as if I was really beaten up to death every single bone in my whole body is really in pain without knowing the reason what behind all of that , well I know that most of the people are in vacation now because of Ramadan and because of the bad weather we are dealing with in Egypt nowadays,but really its a very bad harsh period for us all,that is the reason why when we are in the streets in the early morning it's really empty as if we are in a desert or we are in the middle of nowhere, it was really very strange in the beginning then I really got used to it very much indeed,so really god help us in that all ,what I really want to say that its very difficult to wake up lazy and in pain and also as if someone hit you on the head with a hammer and not any hammer, it is a heavy one ,leaving you in between living and dead, that is what I exactly my feeling this morning and every morning,wake up in chock where does the energy and power goes, I really don't know where, I hope really I would found them cause I am really in a greet need of them in order to wake up in aright way and could really do my job, that what I hope to find in the few days coming along pray for me gays and really searching very hard wish to find them soon,in order to be in shape and in order to feel as if i am really alive not in between you know what I will dig more and more deeper tell i really found it ISA.