A CUP OF TEA

I know one thing very much that I really under estimated the value of my cup of tea,I really own you a great apology cause it's really very important in order to wake up in a proper way, that what I really think very important in order to wake up active and don't take that much time in order to walk up and in order to hear anything happening around you and in order to see your computer screen and in order to deal with others around to communicate with others without the chock of being sleepy and very lazy indeed, I know that one cup of tea is not a problem that if it's really one, I in the normal situation far away from Ramadan and fasting when I open my eyes before washing my teeth and face, I put the boiler on in order to make the magical glass of tea that really is like a glass in front of my own eyes in order to see well and in order to be prepared to deal with others from silly dam people that surrounds us every day in every where, we go through ,I think that is something we really have to get used to it as we could, cause they are really increasing everyday and also everywhere at home at work in the streets in all places around but what shall we do ?we really have to be that patient in order to deal and in order to be that calm and order to deal with others, I am really surrounded with a whole group of them specially at work, I don't know the problem in the people around or in myself as mai, I think I am not that bad or I am not an awful person in deed, I am a normal one with bad luck that is me that what I really think of myself but as I told you before I am not that social, I can't really mix with others that easily, I have many colleagues but really they are dam and stupid too but really I am not that good in dealing with them, they are surrounding me from all directions, I can't run from them and also I can't hide, tell me what would you do if you were in my place??????????????

BOILED AND MIXED INTO PIECES

Good morning all , well I am very tired and sleepy too,don't know all of this laziness from where, I only know one thing,don't know all the night long I dreamed around thousands of bad dreams ,some dreams from my childhood others from my teenage, I don't know what is really happening in my head and brain, I think my brain is very much boiled and after that was put in a mixer in order to be cut into little pieces, well I really wake up everyday as if I was in a war not sleeping in my own bed, as if I was really beaten up to death every single bone in my whole body is really in pain without knowing the reason what behind all of that , well I know that most of the people are in vacation now because of Ramadan and because of the bad weather we are dealing with in Egypt nowadays,but really its a very bad harsh period for us all,that is the reason why when we are in the streets in the early morning it's really empty as if we are in a desert or we are in the middle of nowhere, it was really very strange in the beginning then I really got used to it very much indeed,so really god help us in that all ,what I really want to say that its very difficult to wake up lazy and in pain and also as if someone hit you on the head with a hammer and not any hammer, it is a heavy one ,leaving you in between living and dead, that is what I exactly my feeling this morning and every morning,wake up in chock where does the energy and power goes, I really don't know where, I hope really I would found them cause I am really in a greet need of them in order to wake up in aright way and could really do my job, that what I hope to find in the few days coming along pray for me gays and really searching very hard wish to find them soon,in order to be in shape and in order to feel as if i am really alive not in between you know what I will dig more and more deeper tell i really found it ISA.

MAY I HAVE MY DOLLS BACK PLEASE

You know what my funniest days was as a kid, I used to play and smile a lot,I can't really ignore that, I used to play by myself alone as usual, I was very lonely person indeed, I used to play alone talk a little, really don't know the reason why? I guess I am not that social but I know that I was really happy ,with my toys with my life with my loneliness too,am I that weird ,really I am kind of quiet person I love to hear a lot more then talk, and I can't get used to people fast,I take a lot of time to mix and mingle with others, don't know why but it's really an action I took it very slow since I was just a kid, my mum told me that she used to take me to the nursery and she used to made me sit on a chair when she leaves and when is back she used to find me in the same chair as if she just left me 5 minutes ago not 9 long hours, I really find that very strange but I also got used to all of that, I loved my dolls my toys and I loved to took care of them a lot, and I have a very strange attitude as a kid, I used to keep them for long time I didn't break them or destroy them as all kids do, but also I found that a little bit strange too, any way that was the happiest moments in my whole life would you please give me my dolls back.

MY SON'S DREAMMMMMMMMMMMM

RAMADAN KAREEM

Well all I know it is a little bit late,but really happy Ramadan to you all,really it is very harsh Ramadan indeed the weather is really awful, it had been very hot since it began but really god be with us, it is really very comic picture while we all are going back home from work if you really concentrated you will find that people are really like dead man's walking on foot they are very sweaty and they are very untidy and they are looking very lousy, they are really very tired walking as if they are dead 2 or 3 days ago, but really I cant blame them, they are and I am with them feels as if they will die from thirst and from lack of food, really I wasn't expecting that Ramadan will be that harsh, beside that everything really became double it's price, its really an ironic thing to happen with that weather, what will people do toward that hot weather beside increasing of the price of everything, very odd indeed what is really happening now, I really don't know whats wrong with everything but every year is really worse then the year before, don't know the reason of that, but its really happens every year, god with us all in all of that, it is really something weird to happen to us among all of that , fasting and hot weather god help ussssssssssssssssssss all.

AS AYMAN SAYS

Like th fire ....But feel so cold

Like a child ...But feel so old

Buy evrything...but my soul to be sold

With a smile like silver

a touch like gold

...like nobody

Like everybody

like a word in apoetry

In a battle like sword

Like a flying stone waiting to hit the ground anytime.

I can write like the sun after long dark night

Like the moon after sunset and no stars

like rivers , seas and oceans

Like nice soft smile

like tears

I can write like sword

and like kind hand

like a dream

like the very deep truth

you can It is only for you

DO I DARE TO ASK WHY?

Everything around is as a vacuum do I dare to ask why ? Everything is dark as a night without a moon ,Do I dare to ask why ? Everything is just moving very fast as circle which has no beginning and have no end,Do I dare to ask why? Every time I put my feet on the ground I just realize its soft as sand dawning as cold deep water, Do I dare to ask why?Every time I look in front I found myself looking back,Do I dare to ask why? Every time I see the future I found myself living in the past ,Do I dare to ask why? Every time I look to the sun I found myself in a total dark,Do I dare to ask why ?Every time I felt warm I found myself in a frozen bow,Do I dare to ask why?Every time I felt very happy I found myself in the bottom of sad ,Do I dare to ask why? Evey time I felt safe I found myself in waving in a mouth of a Dragon , Do I dare to ask why? Every time I felt very calm I found myself with thousands of voices and on the top of mad,Do I dare to ask why? Every time I found myself and felt stable I found myself nodded among a lot of men,Do I dare to ask why? Every time I saw the light I found myself in the in the darkest point along,Do I dare to ask why?Every Time I ask people for directions they show me the wrong way to cross,Do I dare to ask why?Every time I felt I smell flowers I found myself with onion rings , Do I dare to ask why? Every time I felt happy ever after I found myself alone miserable with my own cats,Do I dare to ask why?Every time I felt I am safe in bed I found myself in the middle of the night fighting with wolfs,Do I dare to ask why ?

Do I dare to ask whyyyyyyyyyyyyy or spare myself the effort and shut my mouth without any reason to cry , any reason to grave, any reason to stay, any reason to leave, any reason talk, any reason to smile,any reason wake up in the morning feeling that bored. feeling that empty, feeling that hollow feeling that sad , Do I really dare to ask why?

Finally I am backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

Hi all I really missed everyone I know that it had been such a long time for me and for you too as well,but really life fulls of surprises and full of events as well, dont know why am I back here but I guess I was a very good friend to my blog and she was very good to me as well, and I missed her too and I just wanted to tell her everything in my life I really dont think there is new events in my life to told,but I will tell her as well what I really have in my life in the last period ,well I left my last job and searched for another one and finally got a new one, well I am not happy in my new job dont know why but really I cant mix with others there without knowing the reason why,but that is a fact there I know it very well,but really I dont have specific reason I guess I became just like oil and vinegar just cant mix with others,that is really a fact I am not that happy with it but it really exist there deep in the dark whole of myself, I guess blogy I returned to you worse then I left but I guess its really something out of my own hands with no reason at all ,but I guess I am a lier,I really had a lot of bad things in the last period I left you.now I am totally a alone I used to have one or two friends but now I dont have at all, I lost them in the crowd of life without knowing the reason why, but its really happened I know that I am really confused dont know the reason or why am I like that in the last days, but I guess its what happening now.