Just Looking Around

good morning blogyi I know that I am now a days on my blog that much but I really miss talking to u that much, u know why cause u r my only honest friend, I have,wish that I have a lot of friends just like u blogyi honest and true friends, I really wish that very much, cause I am really feeling very lonely out there u know, when I am going home everyday I sit by the window in transportations, I look around me asking myself that among all these people this huge number how come I am just feeling lonely am I crazy, am I? there are a lot of people around me in every area in the street its really full of people then why I don't meet the right people? why do I always meet the wrong ones, why do I really pick them up among all these people ,why do I choose the wrong people usual, why just need to know the reason, just to avoid it in the next time if there is really one next time, I know that my be I am not from the lucky ones whom really meets the right persons in the right time, but at least to stop being that dumb in judging people around me, why am so dumb?is it some kind of gift or is it some kind of a drawback in my own character, why is that I know that its really strange what is happening to me now without any reason, or without any reason made believe that I really deserve that ,so I just look at the people faces searching for someone or may be something I don't know what or who it is? but what I really know that I am really still hoping that I have something good or someone good in my life, as some kind of a change and also I am really done from having a lot of bad people around me in all my whole life, as if that is very normal in my life, I really wish that this will change really soon, I wish it very much from all my heart, but I can''t really do it that easily, that what really made me feels very sad in deed, and also I know that the only thing that made me feels a little bet good is that jasmine soap, I used this morning cause its smell's around me everywhere, and I really love jasmine very much I always dreamed of having a house with a garden all around and full of roses and jasmine and nice colorful flowers around me every where, and with a lake in front and with a nice white spots which is lightening that lake at night with the moon light reflecting its light on that lake, creating very nice view I would pay my life for living out there and having that view in front of me when I wake up everyday that's one of my dreams I really hope that it will come true very much ,cause it will really makes me feels that happy, and I really wish that I will feel that happy one day, I guess that no one deserve to be that unhappy and, also that no one just love to be that miserable, everyone wants to be happy and full of happinessa and joy ,but I

guess not everything the person is dreaming of could really come true .