Saturday, 21 November 2009
Strange Weekend
Well hi blogyi it was really a strange weekend cause I had a lot of bad things happened to me without knowing the reason of all of that, but its really strange cause it was after each other as if they are coming in order for such special weekend, so it was really a very nice weekend ,first I lost one of my very few friends I had cause I discovered after talking to him for a long time that he really don't ask about me unless in his spare long time , he was dealing with me as some kind of a toy when he had some spare time he asks about me, when is very occupied he totally forgot about me don't ask about me even for once, and that really made me felt very humiliated in deed cause really I am not anybody's toy, I am a person with feelings and with a sensitive nature ,but really no one cares about that what so ever, and I also don't know what's the reason behind that, why do people turns into selfish basters, why is that I just saw it really strange but when I really focus on it I found it some kind of normal nowadays, so I don't know tell when I will be surprised with people actions, I must stop feeling astonshed by that, mai please stop tourchering yourself everyday just stop doing that to yourself ,then I really met a new friend this friend I really liked him a lot and i had very hight hopes for him as a person, I really don't know why but it was just a feeling, I really had it when I talked to him, but you know what my feeling was very wrong in deed don't why I guess the only reason behind that is that I really had hight hopes toward people I really don't know why or from where I bring this hope from where so i was really upset cause i were really very wrong in all my the expectations toward him, and also I went to get my son back from my mum's house imagine what happened with him too , he really refused to come with me cause he told me that he want to play with his friends in my dad's store, so he refused to come with me and told me that he will stay at mum's for all holiday in order to play and have fun ,so I will stay alone for a while at home a lone with my little kitty, I hope that she will not decide to leave me too,as my own son ,and my collage at work was very ill recently, so she had to take a vacation around 15 days and I had to carry all her work out alone and this is very heavy stress on my nervous, my poor weak nervous ,also my mum is really upset of me cause I leaves saif there and won't agree to stay there with him, cause really I don't feel that comfortable there but it really the truth, I can't deny it ,also saif had got very bad marks in his exams and that really disappointed me very much and made me felt very down and stress, so I guess all of that combined together to destroyed me and made me felt very low self steam and really disappointed.
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