Alone With My Own Cat

ALONE WITH MY OWN CAT,YOU KNOW WHAT , at first I really hated the idea of having a cat, I really hated it very much, but suddenly I realized that it wasn't such a bad idea after all, it really plays around me all the time, she made me feels that I am not that alone, she always eats with me and she also made some noise in a house really full with quietness around ,with no sounds what so ever as if it's really a house of the dead, but don't know the reason why I really love it to be that way, and also I feels very comfortable in it very much don't know the reason what ,I just feels that everything in there is just mine, and everything is around suits me a lot, as if they were really created to be the way, and with this order I know it and also feel it very much, since Ii moved there about one one month ago, so Ii know that I am not on the edge of happiness but I am feeling very comfortable as a change, that's what relief me deep deep inside, so it's really nice to have yourself a home, and your own privacy at that home.

Strange Weekend

Well hi blogyi it was really a strange weekend cause I had a lot of bad things happened to me without knowing the reason of all of that, but its really strange cause it was after each other as if they are coming in order for such special weekend, so it was really a very nice weekend ,first I lost one of my very few friends I had cause I discovered after talking to him for a long time that he really don't ask about me unless in his spare long time , he was dealing with me as some kind of a toy when he had some spare time he asks about me, when is very occupied he totally forgot about me don't ask about me even for once, and that really made me felt very humiliated in deed cause really I am not anybody's toy, I am a person with feelings and with a sensitive nature ,but really no one cares about that what so ever, and I also don't know what's the reason behind that, why do people turns into selfish basters, why is that I just saw it really strange but when I really focus on it I found it some kind of normal nowadays, so I don't know tell when I will be surprised with people actions, I must stop feeling astonshed by that, mai please stop tourchering yourself everyday just stop doing that to yourself ,then I really met a new friend this friend I really liked him a lot and i had very hight hopes for him as a person, I really don't know why but it was just a feeling, I really had it when I talked to him, but you know what my feeling was very wrong in deed don't why I guess the only reason behind that is that I really had hight hopes toward people I really don't know why or from where I bring this hope from where so i was really upset cause i were really very wrong in all my the expectations toward him, and also I went to get my son back from my mum's house imagine what happened with him too , he really refused to come with me cause he told me that he want to play with his friends in my dad's store, so he refused to come with me and told me that he will stay at mum's for all holiday in order to play and have fun ,so I will stay alone for a while at home a lone with my little kitty, I hope that she will not decide to leave me too,as my own son ,and my collage at work was very ill recently, so she had to take a vacation around 15 days and I had to carry all her work out alone and this is very heavy stress on my nervous, my poor weak nervous ,also my mum is really upset of me cause I leaves saif there and won't agree to stay there with him, cause really I don't feel that comfortable there but it really the truth, I can't deny it ,also saif had got very bad marks in his exams and that really disappointed me very much and made me felt very down and stress, so I guess all of that combined together to destroyed me and made me felt very low self steam and really disappointed.

I AM Really Am Sad For Egypt

Well I am really sad for Egypt,it was really a very hard shock for her and for every Egyptian too,I were really disappointed cause of yesterday match, I know that I weren't the only one who felt that way, but really I don't know why all of us were really excepting that Egypt will win that match ,we really had a very hard hit on the head as if someone really took a gun and really shot all the country in the head, all people around including me feels deep shit, and all of them are really sad and upset feeling very down, and really a very upset, so I guess we cant say but really hard luck Egypt, and we really wished that we had really won the match ,so it is really a very bad thing to describe,I am really some kind of speechless and feeling very very very low self steam, but really I know that this bad feeling will take it's time and will go away ISA, and we all will be fine soon ISA.

Something Really Wrong With me

well blog really I dont know, I really woke up this morning feeling very lazy in deed without knowing the reason of that, I really felt that I want to do nothing except sleeping in bed all day long without any reason of that, as if I were really beaten up to death by some kind of monster, and also don't know the reason what or why, but that was my feeling when i really got out of bed today, I were really very lazy to take off my cover and stand up out of my own bed, I guess I just wanted to get out of this mood ,but really I couldn't do that to myself,I felt as if I really wanted to be left alone all day long without even speaking to anyone around me even for saying good morning, that is really strange cause it is without any reason what so ever ,but really I am not that well this morning, so I guess I know that today is Thursday, and I really used to get out in it as some kind of breaking down the rotten of the week, that is what I try to do every weekend, but even going out also is very heavy on me today, I don't know why is everything seems that difficult even standing up from my chair at work ,so I guess I will go home today after work without going any where, cause I really don't feel like going anywhere today ,so happy weekend laying down in bed with my sweet kitty cause saif is at his grand 's house so really don't know what's wrong with me hoping that what is really wrong will end soonnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

LIVE IT EVEN WITH AN ANIMAL

I SOMETIMES wonder what my dream is ?really I don't have one what so ever,so I decided really to find what is saif's dream, so I really find it so simple, he is really dreaming of having a cat, I know that he is really dreaming of getting it cause he is really a lonely child, we are really living a lone and that is not that easy on a 9 years old child, so I really decided to make his dream come true cause its really nice that someone really care to makes your dreams come true ,that is really nice thing that you had someone who really care about you as a person and about your dreams come true as a whole, so I guess saif is very lucky to have me, anyway I am just kidding,so I decided to buy him a cat in order to made him happier that is what I wanted to do for him,so I bought him one nice kitty, it is really three colors white black and orange too, it is really nice one but she is really very naughty one, I guess she loves to play, I guess she is a baby too as saif ,that what I really think so, I was not that happy when I got it cause its really some kind of responsibility, so I bought it and I wasn't really that happy with this design, but I really did it for saif sack's, I really love to see his smile ,and and also to see him that happy, anyway I bought it, but I realized one thing you know what that it's not that bad after all, I don't know but I really felt that it is nice, cause she really liked me a lot, she is like a litle baby she sleeps in my hug and she really clumb me up in order to sleep between my arms, she is depending on me in order to eat and in order to drink and in order to do everything, its nice to really feel that you are really important to someone, he is really depending on you to do everything, and that he is really attached to you to really do all things, that is really a great feeling to feel a life and nice to feel it, even with an animal that what I really find that is really a marvelous feeling to live it even with some kind of an animal ,I JUST now knew why they decide to live with animals when they are living alone, that is why cause the animal satisfies the feeling of need inside them cause everyone feels with his important from the need of him from others need of him, when they are really in need for him ,so very good and healthy too to feel your importance to others in your life so I am really glad to feel that even with a cute little animal like lucy, my son named her that and I am really happy that I really could made him felt happy.

MOVING ISSUE

HI blogyi, really missed u like hell I know that it had a while since I really wrote anything in you,I know that you must have been very upset of me,and I know that it is really your right to be very upset,but you know that I was really moving from my parents house,so it was really a difficult period,I was really doing a million things to do, so I had really to very busy in deed doing a lot of things in order to finish this step in a right way ,without any mistakes what so ever, so I guess that was very hard to do ,but thanks god I really did it, and I really manged to move from my parents house with no damages what so ever, so I guess its really nice that I finished this step without any problems what so ever, specially that I had a lot of problems in my parents house before I leave it so I had really to leave it before theses problems got bigger and bigger ,so I know that I finally finished everything up,so its really nice to end it in a proper way.